Wednesday, January 11, 2012

Sex

boys will be boys and girls will be girls. this is said with excuse to the current state of behavior between the sexes because we generally lost understanding of one another. we quote the saying as if we know. both are individually categorized to carry certain duties, be attracted to specific interests, embody certain physiques, and generally think a certain way. when the lines are blurred, confusion ensues. the confusion happens more so everyday because the times are rapidly changing. males and females are trying to find understanding in this lost chaotic world. i believe humans used to love one another unconditionally with like sibling mentality, but of course sexual attraction would exist. now, sex has lost it's way for a feeling and has strayed far from it's greater power. i also believe we've caught onto the general behavior of how each sex intuitively behaves, but have taken it to extremities.

the male figure generally questions, builds, deconstructs, and finds reason through logic.

the female figure generally builds relationships, is emotional and is more in tune with nature than males.

each figure compliments and needs one another unless each individually posses characteristics of both sexes.

in present day, i find each sex wanting to live up to popular culture's vision of each being sold through media, social institutions, dogma, and reacting to peer's attitudes to them, molding an unquestioning mind or creating minds that have such a strongly developed, convinced foundation as to their place in the world.

along the lineage of civilization, women have been

Wednesday, January 4, 2012

Fathering Time

I am growing older. faster so. it appears. sometimes I believe it to be a thing of becoming older; to feel as if time has slipped and becoming old is frightening because all things must pass and the wear on the body takes its toll.
the idea of death distorts many minds to believe there was never enough time left. the fear of losing it renders it sacred. aside from age, the freedom to experience without boundaries expresses time as lost in the moments. my qualm is the perception of it all. I'm fairly young. why is it that I feel like an old soul? why is it that I feel so bored with what a majority of my peers are doing? why do i feel so lost as to why i'm existing? why does time seem to be working against me? I'm missing a connection and i seek to remedy it. maybe i'm meeting a connection and i'm confused by it. i've been hanging my personal perceptions on the life line out the country side and have stepped away from a city of dogma, high technology, money and aggressive attitudes. the human potential speaks to me.
i believe i've spent time over indulging and intoxicated with popular culture, sugar, alcohol, music, drugs, social media, sex and social structures designed and built to distract me from something more deeply rooted. i feel i'm surrounded by participants that blindly take more than they give, slowly reducing the world and many of its inhabitants into selfish, oblivious individuals.
everything was created by thought; the table before me, the language i communicate in, the money i trade, the structure of society, the levels of feeling in association with words among many things. i'm surrounded by thoughts of many people through the ages that have survived time. who's to say i couldn't be me with my own thoughts; to lose sight of everything before me externally and internally and exist on a world full of nature unobstructed by modern human nature. i see man as gods coexisting with nature amongst his fellow people and in tune with the ways of the universe, capable of things beyond the wild imagination.

Sunday, January 1, 2012

Hello

TRYING TO GET YOURS. TRYING TO COP THAT FEELING. TRYING TO SURVIVE. TRYING TO LIVE. TRYING TO GET AHEAD. TRYING TO WIN. TRYING TO BE THE BEST. TRYING TO OUT DO BEFORE. TRYING SO HARD. TRYING AS IF YOU KNOW. TRYING TO BE AS IF YOU KNEW YOURSELF. WHO ARE YOU? YOU ACT IT. YOU BELIEVE IT. YOU WALK IT. YOU TALK IT. YOU SPREAD IT.

YOU FORGOT. YOU'RE DISCONNECTED. YOU DON'T REALIZE. YOU'VE UNDER LOOKED. YOU'VE OVER LOOKED. YOU MISSED IT. YOU DON'T RECALL. YOU DON'T KNOW. YOU FORGET.

YOU SEE IT. YOU ENVISION IT. YOU IMAGINE IT. YOU SENSE IT. YOU DREAM IT. YOU FEEL IT. YOU UNDERSTAND.

HELLO